it just a simple words and things . but not all the time we can feel it neither i . i just finish chat with my old friends , velerei who live at philipines . and since we not be chat for a long time , i feel so happy . then , sometimes when i online and then suddenly someone that i approve but never talk to me say hye , i can smile . it's shows that many things can make me smile . it just we who make a decision to enjoy and think about it or just ignore and forget about it .
lately , i had through a horrified and happy day at the same time . sometimes i might confused but i through it well eventually . i try to enjoy and managed my feeling so well . i don't want to be like the old ean who just know "crying as the best solution" and "let the emotion control myself" . but i want to be the new siti nur raihan that "smile whenever you have a problem . cause there is nothing in this world that can't be solve" and "enjoy every tick and moment freely cause it only can happen once in your life" . and i want to use the happy time when i'm feeling sad . and i will use the sad time as the reminder for me in the happy time . see ? who said allah is not fair ? it's just we don't see the real is .
the truth is i feel so so so sad about her . but i don't want to show it cause i don't want to be said as "ean nih mule la uhh buat muke" . i had heard the words since i get my first friends ! and i want we to be close because of our effort to make it . i still can smile because i know that we can do it . i just don't wanna be like our jamuan akhir tahun lepas kat the park . it just so sad that it not be the best moment for some people .
and about him , i just want to try the feeling of in love again and make it as an excuse for me to smile . i know that i'm over sometimes . but this is the last time for me to feel like this in our school time . but if you stress and annoy with it , i get it . i'll stop talking about it infront of you if that what you want .
the conclude is , i just want everything move smoothly and with a smile :)
*sorry for the bad english . enta nape tetibe na menggedik lark speaking . hehe
: mak cakab muke ean dah gelap :) :
without you , i can't sleep ^.^
yang merapu ,
ean na senyum2
